My Greek Goddess Era

Full disclosure, I can’t remember going on a vacation without first trying to become a better looking version of myself. Like somehow, I would need to be skinnier or stronger on vacation. How I may not be able to spend a whole week with myself otherwise.

But for the first time ever, I didn’t do that. I didn’t even want to do that. If you know me well, you’ve heard me say I’m in my “Greek Goddess Era.” I think this might be what radical self-love feels like. I’m not saying I spend all my time in this space, but it’s becoming more normal for me, and let me tell you, I did not look any different on this vacation than I have in the past. At least I don’t think I did. Maybe I looked better. I’m not sure. It doesn’t matter. What matters is that I didn’t care…in a good way.

In fact, instead of getting up early every morning to run or work out, I slept in for the first few days. We walked a ton and ate great food. I went to a stretching class and read two whole wonderful books. I was present with my family, quiet in my brain, and almost totally unplugged.

Then on the last two days something happened. I woke up and found that what I really wanted to do was go for a (short) run in this beautiful place that I love. Not because it would make me look or feel better in my bathing suit, or check a box on my to-do list, but because I was finally rested enough for it to feel so good.

Maybe the better version I’ve been looking for is the one who finally sees and loves myself as I am.